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Sweet Moments

As I sit here watching the sunrise out the window I think about how my little boy is going to be one year old soon. Things have changed so much in a year. Life has gotten so much more joyful and so much more complicated. I am currently 30 weeks pregnant with my second little boy and all I can think is I need to hold Tucker as much as I can. I'm sure I'm having every thought that goes through a moms mind when she has a second baby so close to the first. This is too soon, I need more time with my first. I'm scared to add another little rambunctious one to the mix. Will they get along? Will they fight more than they get along? What will life be like? So today I'm going to remember the sweet moments I have with Tucker, like putting him to sleep at night. I don't do this often, Josh has gotten into the routine since I have a growing belly which makes it difficult when Tucker is in a wiggle mood. But a few nights ago I put him to sleep, he feel asleep in my arms. I stood up with him and he wraps his arms around my neck and starts to run him fingers through my hair while simultaneously giving me a hug and gently leans his head back with his paci in his mouth and sleeps soundly. I will never forget. Those moments make all the not so easy moments disappear.
-B

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