New Mom Need Coffee

I'm sitting here during nap time trying to do a million different things. I have this small window of time to myself that i'm torn between getting house work done and having some quiet time. There's so much to do in a day that most days i wish there was a few more hours, or rather I had more energy to stay up later and get stuff done! So here I am with what I expect to be an hour at the most and i'm frazzled because I have so much to do and so little time. As you can tell I've decided to sit down and write a blog post and just get the thoughts I have in my head out. Empty my brain and stop thinking about all the things that need to be done and just enjoy the fact that both kids are napping and my husband just surprised me by coming home early and going to get us some lunch. What is life right now? It's a constant stage of change and chaos. It's these little moments during nap time that I sometimes get to process these chaotic moments and recharge. Thanks k

I've gotten into the habit of getting up 1 hour before my husband and *fingers crossed* two hours before the kids. I'm a morning person and crave that time to sit and think and drink my coffee. I can see out of the kitchen window, where I sit to write my post, the sun is just about to come up. I'm so tired, Grant nursed a lot through the night last night, which he's been doing more frequently, but I feel good that I'm up and getting ready for the day. Motherhood has changed since Easter. Easter day Grant started to crawl forward, I say that because for weeks he would crawl or slide backward but showed no signs of going forward until Easter. He loves to explore and doesn't need to sit in my lap all day. Not that I've gotten anything done, I just love to sit and watch him and Tucker interact. Its bittersweet, my arms feel free, but I'm starting to think I"m more attached than my kids. I miss him sitting in my arms and looking at me most of the day.