I listen to a lot of music, a wide variety, and there is typically a reason I listen to a certain song, today I'm listening to Mat Kearney's new album called Just Kids. Mat Kearney is my all time favorite artist, his music has always had a good message for me. His words have meaning. I love the beats in his music, and I love the laid back sound. Today while listening "Los Angeles" which sounds like a song about how he started in the music industry, I started to think about how I feel like I'm meant for a more. What do you do when you know you're meant for more but aren't quite sure what that more is and how to know? I want to be more brave to do more with my life. There's a lot of times that I feel a bit caught in between a space I can't get out of. For instance I'm still in school.....10 years out of high school and STILL in school, and before I always had the mentality that my life will start when I finish school and can have a career that means something. I have lost that mentality (which is a good thing considering) I like to live in the moment more and stop waiting, but then I still feel a bit stuck. Like I can't do more than I'm already doing, yet I feel like what I'm doing is not enough. I don't know if what I feel will ever come of anything but I do have things I want to work on. I am confident it will sort its self out but I do not have patience.
I was having a conversation with my mom yesterday about eating and self control. I can't tell you how many times I have racked my brain for motivation and simple logic on how to better control myself around food. I feel like if you have self control you don't have to be on a diet all you need to do is eat what you want just don't eat so much of it and you've got the whole being healthy thing figured out. Of course it wouldn't hurt to add some good in, that has to be said. BUT I can't seem to figure out how to control my eating when it comes to sitting down and eating supper, I overeat every sinlge time. I have two kids so sitting down to eat isn't as interesting as it used to be. When I would cook meals before I would typically slave for about an hour and by the time I sat down I would eat a small amount then be too tired to eat anymore. Weird I know. Funny thing is when you spend the time cooking a meal eating it is not as interesting as eating something
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