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I can't wait until...

As a new mom, I said a lot of things when I was pregnant that started with "I can't wait until..."
I can't wait until I can put Tucker in the baby carrier and go on hikes
I can't wait until I can put Tucker in the stroller and go on long walks in the evening
I can't wait until we can take Tucker out of town and travel with him
I can't wait until we can take family pictures
Fastforward to now. Boy was I ignorantly blissful. Tucker does not like to be in the stroller, or in the baby carrier, he doesn't care for long car rides either. My sister-in-law and I took Tucker and her little one to have Halloween pictures taken a week ago, yea Tucker did not care for those too much either.
As I sit here and write this I think about all the "I can't wait until..." comments I've made since Tucker has been born. I can't wait until Tucker can hold his head up on his own (done) I can't wait until he can eat baby food (done) I can't wait until he can sit up on his own I can't wait until he can walk I can't wait until he can talk I can't wait until he can hold the bottle up on his own
Each new part of Tuckers life comes with it's challenges and even though right now I might think it's easier for Tucker to have baby food (misconception) becacuse I THOUGHT that meant he would be more full and there would less feedings and he might sleep through the night,... none of that is happening. I can't help but laugh because all these thoughts that go through my head since I had Tucker are mostly wrong. I guess that is what new parenthood is all about, learning and making mistakes.
So for now I am going to cherish the Right Now moments, such as the way he will hold my hand while he's being fed his bottle, and how he still lets me cradle him to sleep (those moments are getting fewer and fewer) not just because all these "I can't wait until..." are wrong but because I want to soak up every ounce of who Tucker is right now because I know tomorrow can change.
-B

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