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Relactation...

Today I talked to a breast feeding momma, and again the thought ran through my head "She's so lucky I wish I could do that for Tucker, it would make life so much easier"
First let me tell you a little background on my breastfeeding experience: Tucker has never latched more than 30 seconds. He does not like the boob. I struggled two good weeks trying to get him to latch to no avail. So for those weeks I pumped and we fed him with a bottle. It eventually got exhausting trying to take care of a newborn and pump and do all the dishes that go along with it, so I stopped. I felt guilty, so two weeks later I tried to get my milk supply back. I tried for maybe 2 days and the most I got out of a whole day was 2oz. I told myself if he will latch I'll stick with it and if not, I'm done. Obviously he didn't latch and now he's four months old and spitting up formula like clockwork and having tummy troubles. All I can think is that if he was on breast milk he wouldn't be so fussy, his stomach would be okay and life in general would be easier. I know I know. That might not be true. He could have acid reflux and breast milk (to the best of my knowledge) has nothing to do with that, but I know it's better for him and I just wish I could provide him with the healthier option.
So here I am struggling with the idea of relactation again ( I have tortured myself thinking about breastfeeding, ...yea I can't let go) when I know that the chances of Tucker latching are SLIM. If we're being honest, I know the chances are maybe 1% at best since he has never latched before. Maybe I wouldn't be feeling this way if we weren't having to consider switching formulas again or Tucker wasn't having other troubles, but do I give it another try? It would be this massive commitment, but is it worth the trouble? Will it be a cure all? Will it drive me to the nut house? I'm going to do some research on the subject and if I find evidence that it's possible....I may have to dive back in. Oh boy. Pray for me.

-B

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