New Mom Need Coffee

6 weeks pregnant with baby #2 and the pregnancy hormones are real! I remember before feeling quite hateful before, must be why some people say they know i'm pregnant cause "the way that she's acting" but yep here we are again and i'm hateful. I hate this symptom, it's the worst, i hate feeling mad or hateful toward anyone! bring my whole spirit down, so i'm going to try really really hard to fight this. Another thing, feeling swollen already, i'm already needing to wear maternity pants, good thing I never put them up! Girl or Boy, i predict a boy....we'll see. I better go Tuck is napping and I want to get a few other things done. bye.

I have all these ideas that I want for Tucker, for instance I want him to really try in school and not just mess around and memorize everything like I did. I want for him to be happy but I have this crazy idea in my head of what makes someone happy, so I have this whole list of things I want for him, mostly a list of things if I could go back that I would basically want for myself. Isn't that what parents do anyways, they learn from what they've been through growing up and say "I never did such and such so I want my kid to do such and such"? That's what I think anyway so here it goes the list of what I want for Tucker: I want Tucker to be curious about the world I don't want him to watch those useless children's cartoons that teach him nothing I want him to explore and learn about the earth I want him to like something that is real, such as the planet, learn about animals, be interested in science, not silly cartoons I want him to read, I want him to...

I am only five weeks pregnant and doesn't it just seen like the minute you find out you're pregnant you FEEL pregnant. But I'm not sure if my tiredness is from being a new mom or from being pregnant. Yep I have a 5 month old and I'm pregnant again so let the exhaustion begin. As if I was exhausted enough now add pregnancy and hormones to the mix. It's great. lol I remember for my first trimester napping whenever I could because I was free and didn't have anything better to do. Now thank God for a great husband who lets me nap otherwise I'd be useless. So Five weeks and counting. I can not wait! I'm really excited to start telling everyone and just see the look on their faces lol I for one think it's a great idea to have 2 children close in age, it may be hard, very hard initially but I have high hopes, all of which you will hear as we go. -B

I want to write a lot but then there is this sound in my head "no one wants to hear your crazy thoughts" So finally when I push that aside and tell myself that I'm not writing for anyone but me I finally put words down and get started. Pretty much all the time these days my head if full of Tucker and my psychology school work, I don't do much tv watching and anytime anyone talks to me about anything I used to be interested in such as cooking, reading, or any kind of craft, I kind of shut down (do a little sad nod) and say I don't really have time for that. When all I really wish I could do is sit down and read a really good book, or find a recipe go to the store and cook the recipe start to finish without interruption. I want to go get a pedicure and not have my brain and motherly instincts rushing to get home to make sure all is okay with Tucker. I want to rewind back to when I was pregnant and get those baby books prepared because I had no idea how little time ...

Tucker still cries...a part of me hoped by the time he turned 5 months old he would have grown out of it, but I hope that every day, week, month. There are days that he goes without crying or resisting sleep, those days are few and far between but they happen, just often enough to keep my sanity. Tucker also does not sleep through the night. I understand that many many babies do not sleep through the night, and even a doctor (not a pediatrician, a fellow parent with a 6 month old) told me to not expect him to sleep longer than 4-5 hours at a time. But with babies around me that sleep through the night I can't help but compare. Tucker does not wake up to eat most often (he has a set alarm in his belly to wake approximately at 4:30am to eat most days), he just wakes up crying every 10-15 minutes after he's been put down. This is tough on an already exhausted parent who lays down in bed and just as you close your eyes to sleep hear your baby crying. Then once he's asleep ...

I feel like since the birth of my baby the topic of conversation is now sleep. In the first month or two of his life it was his pooping habits along with his sleep habits but now it's pretty much just sleep. How is he sleeping? Did he sleep through the night? Did you get sleep? I for one talk about it the most. Not that I get questions so much as I'm telling everyone "He isn't sleeping" in hopes they will give me some advice that I might try. And I have to admit, any little thing someone has suggested I HAVE TRIED. So far the best thing has been turning the vacuum cleaner on! Thank the Lord my best friend told me about this secret because, I still don't know where I'd be if she hadn't! Anyways right now Tucker is a pretty restless sleeper and Josh and I are pretty much having to jump up and turn the vacuum cleaner on 2 or 3 times a night and then at least one time pick him up and soothe him or feed him. We've tried the noise app and apparently...

Last night (Sunday night) was date night for Josh and me. It was the first time we had seen a movie since I was maybe 6 months pregnant. Something that we used to do all the time, anytime, it had taken us 7 months to do. I had worked all day (sidenote: I wake up at 3:30am to get ready for work to be there by 4:30 am...I have heard this is a bit crazy) and was very tired and missed my baby, but we forged on and went anyway. We drove the 45 minutes to Corbin to see a two and a half hour movie (Gone Girl, I highly recommend it!) so by the time we got out it was around 7 pm. From lack of seeing my baby and being so hungry I was shaking, I was ready to grab something fast and go home. The last 30 minutes of the movie I was trying to come up with a way to tell Josh this. We had both wanted a steak dinner and just some time to ingest food at a normal speed (unlike "the baby is going to cry" speed) so I didn't know how he'd feel about changing plans . So while I was wai...