New Mom Need Coffee

My confession: I watch youtube religiously. I love watching families film their lives (especially the families that are from other countries) and I love to watch beauty gurus put makeup on even though I don't wear that much makeup. I keep up with a few families who put up videos everyday and almost watch them every single day. I am addicted. Anyhow there is a downside, I don't know if anyone else does this, but I am ridiculously bad at comparing myself to others. I hate it but I do it anyway and in a way it motivates me but in a lot of bad ways it gets me down. So I was on youtube this morning watching a vlog my husband referred to me and he was having a bad day but made a very encouraging positive comment I wanted to share because I want to try to remember it everyday! "we all have problems the best thing we can do is solve one problem at a time, slap a smile on our face and do not worry, because worrying does not change the outcome, keep moving forward, smile and tak...

I totally forgot to take pictures of everything I ate yesterday, it's such a shame too because I had some good food with reasonable portions. Boo I'm going to start taking pictures right this moment, I'm having a homemade starbucks mocha at the moment. Hope you're having a good morning! -B

I have been trying to figure out what in the world I could do to get motivated to eat better this pregnancy. I was so much better at eating healthy with Tucker, it wasn't even hard, I craved fruit and loved all the healthy food. This time around is completely different, and I don't know if it's because I am more stressed (which means for me that I will eat my feelings...bad, bad, bad) and that makes me want to indulge more, but basically there has been no healthy eating over here. I haven't even given myself boundaries when it comes to the amount of sweets I eat. I think it's good to have a plan in motion everyday, for instance my plan for the last 5 months seems to be "DRINK MORE WATER" I do not like water lately, I used to drink it religiously but tend to want soda, pepsi in particular, I've somehow got it in my head that I need the caffeine. If you are not normally a soda drinker and then start drinking it (like me) you know you don't get an...

I listen to a lot of music, a wide variety, and there is typically a reason I listen to a certain song, today I'm listening to Mat Kearney's new album called Just Kids. Mat Kearney is my all time favorite artist, his music has always had a good message for me. His words have meaning. I love the beats in his music, and I love the laid back sound. Today while listening "Los Angeles" which sounds like a song about how he started in the music industry, I started to think about how I feel like I'm meant for a more. What do you do when you know you're meant for more but aren't quite sure what that more is and how to know? I want to be more brave to do more with my life. There's a lot of times that I feel a bit caught in between a space I can't get out of. For instance I'm still in school.....10 years out of high school and STILL in school, and before I always had the mentality that my life will start when I finish school and can have a career that me...

I am probably the most tired I have ever been in my life, but that's okay because I am currently growing a baby in my belly and running after a really fast 8 month old. Life is good. Exhausting in the best way. Tucker is at the stage where everything is fun and happy. He makes me smile more often then ever. Although one of the reasons I am so tired is because he still does not sleep through the night (perhaps its worse than ever now) but if that's his only problem, I'm not going to complain. This winter has been crazy, Tucker and I have been pretty restless cooped up in the house, I cannot wait until warm weather and we can go to the park more! I think that might be good for his sleeping habits too! Anyways just a quick update, sometimes I don't know what to write about, my brain capacity is so full these days with baby, baby, baby that I can't think straight, so I will write when I have something on my mind. :)