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Waiting for Change

I have become a creature of habit, change it hard for me. When I was younger it was no big deal, from childhood we moved a lot and my life was always changing, but after being married and I got settled I don't want anything to change. It was hard after having a baby, I anticipated that things would change, and change quite often, but to add another to our family. That is another big change. I am so excited and anxious to meet baby #2, but things are moving quite fast. Tucker will be 1 next month and then the following month I will have our second son. Another big change coming to the family is my husbands job. He is waiting, waiting, waiting on the phone call for a start date to his new job/career. It is exciting and he is excited but me I'm in the background thinking EVERYTHING WILL CHANGE!!! Right now we have a good routine watching Tucker. I take care of him Monday through Thursday, Josh and I both work on Fridays so his mom watches him and Josh takes care of him Saturday and Sundays. That will all change. With his new career he will be working crazy hours and who knows when he will be home. This is going to throw us off our game. So here I am worrying about change before it has even hit us. Silly, but it's inevitable and it's just whats on my mind. I'm trying to be positive but life has thrown us some loops since last year and I like to be ready so I don't fall.
-B

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