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Strong Enough

Will I be strong enough to be the parent I need to be? I have always wanted to do the right things by my son; I want to be the one to make the strong decisions not the easy ones. I want to do what will eventually make my son a strong, honorable, honest, and good person. He is seven months old and I feel like I have already failed him. I sit and think about how what he is learning now will shape his future. That baby is smart. He knows how to work me already. (Disclaimer: I am a very tired mom, have a full plate with working full time, taking college classes and still watching Tucker 4 days a week, and keeping the house in order, oh yea and trying to have a social life) He knows how to get what he wants. Just yesterday I was feeding him his oatmeal and he took the spoon from my hand and when I tried to take it back he squealed and bucked backwards in his highchair. Of course I gave the spoon back to him, I was tired and just wanted him to eat his oatmeal and not fuss. That, that moment right there shows that I have done him a disservice letting him think he can get what he wants simply by pushing back. People do not give babies enough credit, they are smart. He has other instances when he knows he can get what he wants too but we’ll save that for another time. So how do I become the strong mom who does the hard, right, thing for her child and not the easy one? I’m guessing this is a journey and I will just have to learn. Come July I will be a momma of two, it gets harder.
(p.s. Update on sleep training….we haven’t done it…see weak, I’m weak…)

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