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What do you envision for your family in the future? That's what I've been asking myself lately, and my husband. It's a hard question but it's good to think about it and plan for it now when you still have control and time to think about it. I have all of these dreams for my family, and visions of what I believe our future will look like. I worry that maybe my husband doesn't share that same vision. I have tried to get it out of him, as to what he wants in the future but I don't think he's put a lot of thought into it so I plan to revisit it, until then here is what I want the future to look like for my family. I want to be active with my family and hike, bike, play sports and always have something to do after school or even throughout the day so that we're not always thinking of our next meal. I want to EAT TO LIVE NOT LIVE TO EAT. I feel as though currently I live to eat, always thinking about my next meal/snack and always thinking about healthy v...

Lately there has been things to happen to our family that can make life not so much difficult as uncomfortable. Since we've been married we have not had to worry about keeping a budget and sticking to it. We are truly blessed. But things have happened lately (one being having a baby) that have hit us hard financially. It has made things a bit uncomfortable. We are now trying to budget and get back on track but it's been difficult. We're working on it, it's a process. But obviously when there is a strain on your wallet there is a strain on your relationships and for myself a strain on my mood. Being pregnant can make your hormones go bonkers but add the stress of planning a 1st birthday party (which takes a lot of money), getting bill after bill in the mail and trying to adjust to a new lifestyle of budgeting and realizing your dream of building a house has been delayed AGAIN can make you even more hormonal. I have no been very pleasant to be around lately. I wou...

I listen to podcasts quite often, I should actually do a whole blog post on my top 10 because I love them so thoroughly! Anyways I listen to podcasts quite often and I have recently been listening to a podcast called Mystery Show. I won't get into exactly what the show is except you should know by the name the narrator and producer solves mysteries. So she was trying to find a way to talk to Britney Spears so she purchases tickets from ticketmaster and when she calls ticketmaster to try and find out how the meet and greet with Britney will go she has a long conversation with the representative about life. He said something that struck a cord with me, in their random conversation (who knew you could have such a lovely conversation with a representative when you ask questions?) he says "If more people worried about other people and asked questions, there would be less time to be selfish and more time to talk to others and learn about other people, cause that's what life i...

I can use the plural version of kids because I am now 32 weeks and feel as though our baby #2 will be here soon!!! Anyways todays post is about feeding Tucker and our new one. First lets acknowledge that Tucker did not breastfeed, he never latched so I pumped and it was really hard so Tucker got 2 weeks of breast milk and then was switched to formula. I'm not judging anyone using formula but I always always wanted my son to have the most natural nutrition, breast milk. Since that did not work out, I'm a little pessimistic about baby #2 breastfeeding. I wish I didn't feel this way but I almost believe it won't happen. I will try my best and try to breast feed but I'm scared the cycle will repeat itself. Hopefully in a month or 2 I will find out my worries are all for nothing. My current struggle is feeding Tucker. I've been pretty LAZY about feeding him healthy food. Lets face it I am pregnant and although I never can say I've really had "cravings...

Last night 95/29/15) Josh and I went out with friends. Tucker spent the night with Josh's family and although going out with a group of friends brings me anxiety, leaving my child overnight brings even more anxiety. I had spent the whole day with Tucker but I feel like I have attachment issues because, let me tell you, it wasn't easy leaving him to go hang out with friends. I miss that kid even when I'm away for an hour or two. But alas we left and met up with some friends for dinner and dessert out in Lexington. When I say that a night out with friends brings me anxiety I mean that in a way that I have no clue how to act therefore I freeze up and am awkwardly silent. Sometimes I eventually come out of my shell but the need to come up with something intelligent or witty cripples me and I ultimately sit there in awkward silence. Last night went a bit better, mostly because my husband was the one sitting there in awkward silence and all I could think was "we can...